Searching

by Amy
(Delaware)

When I was a teenager, my family was going through some pretty rough times. I had no prior knowledge of Tibet or what was going on there.

My family had no telephone and no television. We were too poor to get the newspaper so I only had knowledge of what was going on around me(mom and dad always fighting no money to pay the rent or electricity and were threatened to be kicked out of the apartment in which we are living, we had food donated and given to us by some very kind people, and we even lived in a motel for a bit. Just about every night I would want to clear the clutter from my mind by taking a walk. Now most people would shutter at the notion of a teenage female walking after midnight to a park outside of a school to clear her head. To me, it was my escape. One day I had the urge to get to Tibet pronto! I had no idea why or what would have ever compelled that in me. The idea overwhelmed me and I kept on explaining it to my mom who also was very stunned that this came out of the blue and where I would ever get a thought about it. Here I sit 17 years later and after having had a rather tough adulthood as well, I still am deeply urged to get to Tibet. What is compelling me to go there? I would always been attracted by some outside force also by the symbols represented and reminding me of Tibet. The flower of life and mandalas. My life has been filled with many mysteries and this is just one of them. If you or anyone else you know also has had something similar happen would you please share it? I'd love to hear or read about them. Thank you for sharing your experience.